The Battle Wages On...

I have been overweight more than half my life now. At 5 feet even, a doctor once told me that my "ideal weight" was 100 pounds. Umm, ok, doc. I would look like tits on a stick. I think ideally, I could be 120 and be real happy. So that would be a bonafide 57 pounds to lose.

Let's see, when I was in middle school - I was the same height I was now but I weighed 98 pounds. I didn't start putting real weight on until about the 11th grade. By the time I graduated high school, I was a size 6 or 8? Don't really remember but slim enough to wear those skinny ass Guess jeans that were in style back then. Got to college and well, you know the rest.

I fluctuated up and down for years after that. Lost about 20 before I got pregnant with my daughter. Gained 50 while pregnant. Lost the baby weight and then some during the breakup. Got married and gained even more. And "more" is where I have been for oh, about 8 or 9 years.

You tell yourself its the "happy, good life" weight that we all gain when we're eating whatever and got good lovin in our lives! You can roll with that excuse, but then you hit the point where you realize the frequent buyers card at Lane Bryant is worn down and the one pair of 14's has been upstaged by the two pairs of 16's. You're a big girl, face it.

Well, no more. I am doing the damn thing now. I've got a steady work out buddy here at work and am hittin the gym 2 to 3 times a week! I've steadied my diet to not exclude myself from carbs but to keep them in check. And so far, I've lost a good 4 pounds in 2 weeks. That seems like it could stay off. I just need to maintain the plan. And then, when I am back down to the 120's... I will be so glad that I am not the fat mother in the bleachers tryin to catch her breath and sippin out of a super big gulp cup. Realistic time to lose the 57 pounds and keep it off=3 years or before my youngest goes to high school. I think I can do it. I'm tryin to be 40 and look like I'm 16 (if my gray hairs cooperate)!!!

No, I'd really just like to be in a super low cut one piece by the summer of 2012 or even before. It's less about health (yeah, I said it!) than it is about vanity. I mean, I want to be healthy but I want to look good more. A swift kick in the ass and I'm on my way. I certainly won't be talking about it every post because I know it just doesn't happen that way- but I will keep you updated every now and then.

RUN BABY RUN!!!

So the youngest child has decided she wants to be Wilma Rudolph and run track. Track is not something that I was ever interested in...ever! But since she expressed an interest in it last year, Dad and I told her that she needed to maintain her grades and keep her room clean and then, YES! She could run track.

Her first meet on Saturday and the girl tied for 2nd place in the 100 meters! We are so proud! She actually came in 1st place in the 400 meters but as she walked over to me by the bleachers, I handed her her Powerade and she said, "that's too loooong, Mommy!". So a sprinter she may be. I'm glad she found something that she wants to do and will stick with.

My niece was recognized for being an outstanding student this week. I live about 10 minutes from my brother but we see each other infrequently at best. Most of the time it is at family stuff or stuff for the kids. I still love him though. What can I say-we lead some busy lives.

His oldest...the one who I named in the hospital and taught how to walk...graduates from high school. She's a bit of a diva. A diva that her auntie (me) helped create from the day she was born. I mean, c'mon, I gave her the middle name Chanel and I'm going to act surprised that she's a diva? Not me...I'm real wit it! That's my baby.

The Babe (my new car) is running oh so beautifully. And the truly grand part about having a car is that I have yet to fill up the gas tank. It's been almost two weeks and I haven't filled up the gas?! Whaaaat?! By the way, we named it "The Babe" cuz its a nice navy blue (a la Yankee blue, if you will). And "The" part comes from the fact my hubby is tickled by the use of "The Batman" in The Dark Knight. I don't know...I just thought he was Batman but Heath Ledger's Joker always says, "The Batman". Hubby laughs almost every time. So The Babe it is.

I wish I had more to report. There is not a whole lot going on in at the moment. June may be a tough one though. am totally booked for every weekend so far. 2 graduation parties and a bridal shower. I still have to plan my sister's baby shower too. Just spring madness. I love it.

My mother's day was really nice. I chilled out. Ate a few burgers and hot dogs. Just did nothing, which is exactly what I wanted to do anyway.

What is it about me running into people from back in the day???!!!

Yesterday, my youngest started track practice. It seems like she will enjoy it. As I was picking her up at 7, I heard someone say, (DJ's WIFE)....I know that isn't (DJ's WIFE)!!! Oh, my, gosh! (DJ's WIFE)!!!!! I turned and looked, it was a girl that I went to college with over um, 10 years ago (ok, damn, 18 years ago). I remembered her name and that we were friends even. I even remembered where she was from in NY! The stuff she remembered! Oh, WOW!

Girl, you used to come to our room and hang out for real!... We used to crack up taking about so-n-so...Whatever happened to...Do you remember?...

It was really nice to see her. We exchanged phone numbers and said we would keep in touch, but does that really happen? As you recall, a few years ago I ran into a bunch of people who knew me even before college...where are they? People change-I get that. I changed. What do you do with an old friend that you don't even know anymore?

My solution is to remain friendly and cordial. I mean, if they were your friend all those years ago, there must of been SOMETHING. Does that mean you have to visit each others houses, go on vacation together and hang out every weekend? No-I don't even do that with my brothers and sisters!!!! But man! She remembered some stuff from college that was really ancient. I mean, completely erased from my memory all together. It really is funny what other people remember. And I'm still pretty tickled by it.

So, work has improved by 75%. Come to find out my boss DID say something to someone! He's so slick! He didn't want to come into work one day and see me not here...heads would of had to roll!!! I certainly appreciated the fact that he had the balls to do it. Not everyone in corporate America is willing to put themselves out there and say what is on their mind!

What can I say? I am a happy happy gal! Not just because of the car but because for once, things seem to turning up for me and my family. Life is hard, no doubt about that one! But boy, having faith, family, friends...I can really make it thru anything and come out a little bit better person!!

The Way of the World...

Sometimes, you need to give people (even the ones you truly love) a little push. Sometimes, drama is more effective. Sometimes, a little patience is required.

It was a sweet and sour combination of all of the above that got me my new ride! Whooo hooo - my hubby came thru!!!!! A real live Christmas in April!

THANKS HONEY!!!! And I knew you understood when you called and said, "All I want is for you to be HAPPY" You get it! A happy wife DOES make a happy life!

I can be a brat, I know. My own Godmother once said, "You kinda spoiled, huh?" But as mentioned in the previous post, my sanity was at stake. Driving out of that dealership lot, I felt like I had moved mountains. And that a huge burden had been lifted. And it was. I felt like a 16 year old with an hour old drivers license! Let's ride!

I am my old self once again. And I love it!